Dienstag, 12. Februar 2013

the ever wandering heart.

when there is wanderlust in my blood, a nostalgia reminding me of recent travels that feels so strong that i can smell every scent and breath the salty fresh sea, feel what i felt then...i can only remind myself that now i am supposed to be where i am right now. there is this season and there will be others. i will travel again. and with traveling i mean months or even years. gypsy life will ever have my wandering heart.
in the meantime i can still look at pictures or even better, remember the things that are not on the pictures. the moments soaked into my skin and bones. eyes and mind.









Dienstag, 5. Februar 2013

personal style.

on our trip last year i got inspired a lot by the personal style of people in williamsburg.
a mix of cool rock chic, undoneness, bohemian/hippie and girly collar dresses.
this mixed up with the laid back berlin street style is exactly what i strive for.
i created some outfits on polyvore that i would like to wear this spring.


rock concert chic




wild at heart




sunny winters day


Freitag, 18. Januar 2013

the power of fragile.






i like to watch people.
on the street or on pictures.
i like to make up stories in my mind about who that person could be, what stories lie behind absent eyes, messy hair and timid smiles.

and when i discover a bit of it, the power of fragility makes me marvel. it reminds me why i love people.
these moments when souls gleam like the sun that gleams through clouded skies for just two seconds on days drawn in grey.
these moments when people are not in their shell or even cage. flawed and full of character and marks.

i love tooth gaps, huge smiles, bed heads, chapped nail polish, paleness, really weird laughter, clumsiness, people that laugh about their own jokes, awkward dancers, sleepy faces and the funny socks i can see people wearing when they sit down on the train, tired from a long workday.

i think we have been told a lie for years and years. as we grew up people told or showed us that we all needed to be perfect in order to be powerful.
but as i thought about it carefully i found that it did not coincide with the experiences i had and lessons i learned.

when there are flaws there is an unaffectedness.
when there are wise words, that we all love, there are people that took a fall and spoke those wise words out of experience.
the wisest men have a beautiful fragility and authenticity.
and for me this is so powerful.
more powerful than everything perfect, combined in one person.
when there is something fragile in your eyes and something broken in your bones, you can turn it into beautiful things.
you can create beauty, you can love, you can ease someones burden.

and as we travel this life the imperfect becomes the perfect, the undesirable becomes desirable, guilt becomes forgiveness and pain becomes love.

it happens all as we travel.
it happens all as we evolve.
it happens all as we never stop learning to see and not just look.


Freitag, 28. Dezember 2012

the perks of being different.

those recent nights this girl has been wide awake accompanied by insomnia. i must say i don't welcome it's company but it gives me time and space to think and create.
i created my very first song in my head in a night of insomnia, wrote it down and played it the next day, so insomnia isn't all bad for me.

one of the things i was thinking was about 'being different'.
i grew up in a small town in a society where everybody is the same. they do the same stuff, wear the same clothes, have the same opinions, take the same classes at university...
i always felt there was a fear of speaking up. speaking your mind. questioning things. being yourself.
because if you do that, people will shut you out.
nobody wants to be an outsider, right?
but for some reason i don't understand why most people give up who they are, in order to fit in. in order to be 'loved' (heads up: if people don´t love you for nothing but yourself they won't love you for someone who you pretend to be).

but here we are.
we are the people that are so different that they can't help but being it. can't help but wanting to be different!
i couldn't betray who i am to fit in where i clearly didn't belong.
when i was a child, i was desperate over what was wrong with me.
why i was so different than them, why i didn't even want to be like them.
i felt wrong, oh so wrong.

but as i grew up a little, thought about things, questioned things i got to know the perks of being different.

we are the rarity.
we are the wild ones.
we are the ones with strong hearts and minds.
we must embrace it!

i found that there is a wisdom i developed, i was only able to receive by questioning and doing things other people thought where 'not normal', 'reckless', 'careless', 'not-like-a-grown-up-should-act'.
i found there is a wisdom you only receive by experience.
and with this i am not saying i have aaall the wisdom.
no, i have worked for the small part of the whole i have gained yet.yet yet yet.

i found that there is poise and self-confidence building up in me more and more by being me.

i found that there is more room for new. 
to create new things. to have new ideas. to have new challenges.

i found that one day i will be irreplaceable, because i am different.

i found that i can write how i do, that i can sing how i do, that i can think how i do.
i can dance how i do, even in a subway station or on the sidewalk. i can live freely. 
i can be amazed by the smallest things on earth and i can be the child i am in my heart. 
i can travel the whole wide world and i can meet new people without judging them or laughing at them, because they are different than i am, want them to or expect them to be.
i can tell everyone about my crazy dreams, no matter if daydream or night. 
i can laugh about the most stupid stuff and be the really crazy one i am.
i can wear heels as high as i want them to be.
i can experience. 
i can make stupid jokes and be wild. 
i can sometimes be careless and reckless. 
i can cry during beautiful sunrises at bondi beach or out of wanderlust.
i can ramble over and over because i am so motivated, impressed or full of love.
i can thrill people when i am keen.
i can sometimes wander. 
i can speak my mind. i can dream.
i can be me.

don't give up yourself in order to fit in.
fitting in is overrated.







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Sonntag, 23. Dezember 2012

hallelujah.



my latest cover on youtube.








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Mittwoch, 19. Dezember 2012

music i love.





















this is what i listen to lately <3


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